here we go again...

I decided to begin my blog again. In all honesty, it is probably for selfish reasons. Since ending it, the emotional path I have taken has been rocky. I thought my good news was going to "free" me but I took another look and it just bound me. The realization hit me that I would have this disease forever. There are no cures and there is no remission. My life, and the lives of those around me, have profoundly changed forever. I am going to live with it - but I am going to put up a good fight for it.
Several people have encouraged me to start the blog again and I resisted because I was not in the throws of the fight anymore and why do people want to read it? But after much thought, I do believe that maybe so many people with illness go through these new stepping stones. So even if I can touch one other person I am going to do it. No obligations for anyone to have to read it.
On Oct 13 of last year I gave Clay a copy of a page out of my Bible. I had written "I believe this is why God led me to do the blog. Thank you for supporting me.". The notes in the Bible said "But genuine relationships are built on honest communication, where we share with others who we really are. It is only when honest feelings are shared that real people can be known, loved, and helped at the deepest levels."
Mahalo and God Bless to all!